20


 Nineteen was a year. 

It hasn't been easy, sometimes it even reached depths of depression and doubt almost causing me to give in. It has definitely been one of the hardest years of my life.

                                                                           But.

I learned so much about myself, and what I was going to do with my life. I believe it's been the most important year in my life thus far. I grew secure in myself. I decided my career, and found that I could love it, and maybe obsess over it too much. I took risky leaps that I don't regret for a moment. I reevaluated where my life was going and that there is a time for establishment and marriage and family, and I decided I'm not there yet. And I don't want to be. I learned the ins and outs of photography, struggled with the business aspect and competition. I learned from my mistakes and others'. Most of all, I found trust in myself, and because of that, could stop desperately searching for it in others. I found that potential, wisdom, and tolerance in myself that will make me a better person. And I love my decisions now, I don't need anyone else to. I can only hope 20 is as good a year.